Bleh...

I thought this semester would be different. I'm a senior! This is my last semester, it shouldn't be that hard, right? Now I feel like May is so far off. Commencement just can't come fast enough. Sure, I should be grateful that I have one more semester of learning ahead of me, and many challenges that I'll learn from. But after four years of this stuff I'm quite over it. I don't want to have to worry about my GPA and assignment grades for another semester. I can't wait to have a job and not have to worry about my weekends being full of homework and studying for exams and whatnot. Hrrm.
Well, I'm going to my first career fair this Wednesday, and I'm a little anxious about it. I've never been to one before, but it sounds like a great opportunity for me to be able to get my name and resume around to some big companies. I'm hoping to find a job in the Triad area, as well as an apartment, before the end of this semester. That's the goal.
Working part time really helps me to step out of student mode for a little while and just focus on my office work. It's sort of relaxing, actually. I've also taken on the position of SAPA (Study Abroad Peer Ambassador) within the business school this semester. I'll be one of ten students who will encourage other business students to go abroad. I understand that it's extra work and time out of my day, but I really enjoy talking to other people about my time abroad and how it changed me. I enjoy answering the deluge of questions that each student has, and relating to them how I felt before I went abroad and how I dealt with the changes once I got to Germany.
Ah...Germany. I've been having a lot of strong memories pop up lately of my time abroad. Europe has been calling to me ever since I left. The food, the cities, the time spent in trams. All of it. I miss it so much. It's getting harder to resist the urge to just pack up everything and go back. I'm definitely going to look into career possibilities on the other side of the pond.
Recently I've realized that I've been trying to plan my life a little too far ahead. I've been trying to plan what my dream job would be and how I'd get there, what my relationship with my girlfriend should be like after I graduate, and where I'd live. I've come to the conclusion that this semester is hard enough without all that floating around in my head. I'm going to be proactive and look for a job and housing, but I have to remember that life will work itself out, and that I should wait until after I graduate to plan some things.
Being proactive and driven can be a pain sometimes. :P